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Wednesday July 28

Cartoon Hilarity - the Fatkins Diet

You need sound to appreciate this animated cartoon rant.

You need to not be offended by bad language.

If you want a fantastic laugh, please check out:

http://www.illwillpress.com/fatkins.html

I promise an update soon, but this was just too good.


I want my waffle sundae!!! Give me my carbs!

7/28/2004 06:24 pm link to this post

Friday July 23

1.6 baby!

Rock and freaking ROLL!


7/23/2004 01:44 pm link to this post

Wednesday July 21

Hey someone stop moving the floor on me!

Ok, lame ass title but I couldn't think of anything snappier. People want to know what the deal is with the doctor. So here it is...I went to the doctor last Thursday - a week after joining WW and I stayed the same, but let's not go there. (But hey, at least I didn't gain..yah, right whatever...guess those flexies aren't for everyone). The doc was 45 minutes late (yes still bitter!) and she was all "Are you sure you're not being a big heifer and lying about it in your food journal?" Ok...she was supposed to be supportive, and I guess she had to ask that question, but like DUH! But what should I expect, she forgot that I had gone to the lab and had bloodwork done. HELLO!?!?! So after basically accusing me of having too nice of a food journal, she says, "ohhhh..you *do* have PCOS symptoms". Yah, like you told me that a month ago! So my testosterone is all crazy and the sugar test thing turned up wanky (insulin resistant ..who me? I only fell asleep at the lab after drinking the jolt x100) and some kinda ratio that is supposed to be 1:1 is like 3:1 or something. So she recommended drugs (Yasmin and Metformin), upping the exercise where I can and shaving off some calories ie. staying at my target and under if possible. So on kungfu days (like today), I'm ready to gnaw off my arm. Ummm how many points for eating my arm? The pills make me nauseous although that's much better than it was, and I weigh in on Friday. I swear I'll do a cartwheel if I lose an ounce. I'll probably cry if I lose a pound...haven't done that in MONTHS.

So anyhoo...that's the update. No pics until I get to onederland again. If you want to know what I look like now, check out the pics in my history and that's about accurate. I just don't have the energy to totally begin at the begin. I started WW fresh, but dont feel the need to visually log every bump in the road. I WILL BE SKINNY AGAIN DAMMIT!

J

7/21/2004 02:03 pm link to this post

Tuesday July 6

fat and loathing

Chaz says I haven't cried as much as I did this weekend about weight since I first started WW. Wowee. I pretty much feel like I did back then too...funny how distorted body image and mind tricks do that to you. How is it possible that I could feel so crappy assed about myself and the way I look when at 339 I would have given up my right boobie to be where I am now. I think it's because even though I was not losing last year, I still felt pretty darn awesome. My energy was zippy doodle and I definitely looked fit. Right now I look bulgey. I'm ashamed that I'm back up on the scale and this time I have no one to blame for making me feel bad but me. This time everyone is being supportive and I'm beating myself senseless with the bat. There are very few outfits (1? 2?) that I put on and I like what I see. I'm mad and hurt and sad and frustrated. The doctor's appointment is 9 days away and I can't understand why I had to wait a month and a half to get started on something that's supposed to help even the playing field. I feel sluggish and depressed. I want to have the pity party so I can get past it. In 10 days I get to begin again with a brand new set of information. I get to dig in and see where my efforts will take me. I get to find hope again and believe in the possibility of getting to goal. I really want to get to goal. I really want to see onederland again. More than that I want to feel empowered again. I want to believe that I can and will do it. This is a curve...a long assed curve but a curve all the same. Can I do this?

7/6/2004 04:08 pm link to this post